I wanted to call...

I wanted to call last night,
Just to say, I love you...
But I had to stop myself,
To put myself on pause.

Wait!
I love you? Really?
Have I fallen so quickly?
It doesn't matter...that's what I feel, right?
Love has no rules.
Whose to say it's not love.
So I picked up the phone...
But I had to stop myself,
To put myself on pause.

I didn't want to be the one to...
To put myself out there,
To make myself vulnerable to rejection,
To be unclothed...naked standing before you.
With no where to hide...
With no where to run...
You and I....
Alone.

I mean, but...
I can't help the way I feel, right?
Love is a natural emotion....right?
Without pretense,
Without fear,
Without Reason...
It's what we all long for,
But spurn at every meeting.
The thing we all hope for,
But refuse to chase after.
That's love, right?
I mean...isn't it?

I wanted to call last night,
Just to say, I love you.
But I had to stop myself,
To put myself on pause,
Just in case you didn't love me too.

The Earth grew silent

The earth grew silent today...
...in tribute to you, i think.
It wanted to honor your memory,
To create a space for reflection,
A place for introspection,
A place to think...
...of you.

The earth grew silent today...
In an effort to ease my sorrow.
To give me the time and space to breathe,
To reflect...
To gird myself against the heartache of tomorrow.


The earth grew silent today...
As i prepared to face the world anew,
To become the man I have to be...
Believing in me,
While honoring you.

The earth grew silent today...
As i placed your memories in my heart,
Realizing that I'd miss you,
Your smile,
Your laugh,
Your voice,
But knowing that we'll truly never be apart.

The earth grew silent today....
In honor...
...of you.

I Don't Know Why....

I don't know why I let you do this to me.
Why I let you touch me....
Caress me...
Fondle me...
Lick me...
Tease me....
Control me?

I don't know why I let you transport me mentally.
Lifting my consciousness to higher plateaus,
While we give in to the carnal sins of lust and desire.
Your lips...
My neck...
My hand...
Your thigh...
Your heart...
My heart...

Together, entertwined.
Forever joined as one.
Beating in unison to a single rhythm,
They link us.
They say the things we dare not say,
Hide the heartache we dare not speak of.
Hold on to the memories that draw us near.

Is this why I let you do these things to me?
Is it because it's love and not lust?
Caring and not controlling?
Is this why our hearts grow stronger...?
Louder...
First, as a hushed whisper heard on the wind.
And each day, increasing in strength...
As I learn you,
And you learn me,
And we become one....in love.

Live

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take


Do you hear it?
The voice that calls your name,
And echoes in your ear.
To your heart
To your soul
To your being

Pushing.
Pulling.
Prodding.
When you are weak,
It strengthens you.
When you are alone,
It comforts you.
When you are lost,
It guides you.

It directs your path,
Warns you of those who mean you harm.
It protects you in your hour of need.
It is your mother.
Your father,
Your brother,
Your sister.
It is God.

His light shines in you
As you live each day.
Trusting not to your own understanding,
But allowing Him to direct your path.
A beacon of faith
to those around you.
You Live.

You live with man,
But you live FOR Him
You cry with friends,
But you REJOICE in Him.
He is you and you Him.
For Him,
You Live.

Is this Love...?

Is this love that I feel?
This strange feeling that stirs my soul
Pulling and tugging at my heartstrings.
Invading my thoughts and corrupting my mind
Changing my very being
Pulsating through my veins
Making me feel …
Alive
Is this love?

What is love anyway?
Is love the way my heart races at the sound of your name?
Or is it the way it leaps at the sound of your voice?
Is it the way I search for your face in a crowd?
All the while knowing you are not there.
Could it be the way I long to be near you?
To feel…
To touch...
To hold…
You

Is this love?
Everyone else tells me no,
It is merely infatuation.
Give it time, it will pass.
But, my heart tells me differently.
Don’t think….
Act!
Don’t wait…
Pursue!
Chase those who you desire,
And who desire you.
So,to answer the minds question
Yes…it is love
Now what are you going to do for it?